This little blog is a space for me to muse as I take a different track in life.. after years of not being able to invite my friends to church (not because it is bad, but simply because it is culturally irrelevant) I am resigning from church voluntary roles to actually do something new.
However, I have no idea what or with whom. And today, to top it all I am not even sure there is a god. My experience and tradition say there is. My reason says there isn't.
Ben asked me yesterday "why did god not just create us without drive to kill". Good question.
You see the trouble I am having is that in inherited church there are boundaries, questions we dare not ask, and there are clergy with 'answers'... where I want to be there are no boundaries and the clergy, much as many of them would love to be where I am, are trapped in church.
So, today I am scared. Today I am vulnerable. So today I am real.
A thought did cross my mind. If I am free from inherited church roles from September, then maybe I am free from attending too? What if I go where everyone else is on a Sunday and join them there... eating brunch , strolling and chatting and cutting the grass? How can that become community?
Too many questions.
dunno that we can ever have too many questions. the questions are good. some questions may have a range of possible/changing answers, some may not. Remember i posted quote from Rob Bell:
ReplyDelete“The word community comes from the word common. Community isn’t really created - it’s discovered. We discover what we’ve had in common all along. We don’t make these bonds from scratch, we merely become aware of bonds that have been there all along”.
So we don't have to "create" a community (pressure pressure) I think we just need to hang out more with people and remember the links of common humanity already there. I think this is such a fab and courageous thing you're doing - go you!!! xx